December is traditionally a hard month for me. I have to really work and really, really concentrate to make it not suck.
The end of the year and the holiday season makes me morose somehow. I count loses, new and old. The commercialism and busyness makes me anxious. I am tempted by foods that are not good for my jerk of a stomach and tend to feel terrible. I dig in my heals and try to endure — enjoyment is out of the question — and breathe a sigh of relief when January finally rolls around.
But I want this December to be different. I want to enjoy the season, not dread it. I want to be present, not living for when it’s all over. I want to feel the magic that December used to hold for me, when I was young and dumb and before life got in the way.
So here’s the plan: Every day in December, I am going to post a wish for us. Nothing long or complicated, just simple thoughts that represent the spirit of the holiday season. Little gifts to myself and for you.
And my first wish:
“Peace. It does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble or hard work. It mean to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart.” –Unknown
Peace in our hearts today and throughout December, peace in the world — or at least our little corner of it — and peace with the lessons life has given us that have made us who we are and brought us to this point today.
It’s contrary to what is actually going on out there (especially in America, with Captain Chaos at the helm), but. Still. I believe in peace. I hope for peace. I crave peace.
Today, I’m wishing us peace.